Priority

What is your priority in your life?

Last time I was asked about this.
Currently I’ll put my priorities like below:

1. Money
2. Family
3. Career
4. God
5. Friendship
6. Health

Basically my priority will change due to what problem I have in life.
Currently my current problem only can be solved if I have money, so I put money as my first priority. I know that the good standard answer is to put God as our first priority.
But in fact is I’m putting money first.

I know money cannot solve all problems. But for my current problem money is the answer
I’m not gonna put money as my first priority in my life.

But for those who don’t know me well, please don’t judge that once I put money as my priority, then forever it will sit there.
Yes in fact my priority always change due to what problem I have.
Not because I’m indecisive but I just analyze what should come first.

I hate those who don’t know me but pretend like they know everything about me.
How can they judge me if they don’t know me. Even they talk less with me and claim they know me better than myself.

Money cannot buy health.
But to maintain our health we need money. If we are sick to go to see doctor we also need money.
Money cannot buy friendship.
Yes, I agree, but to maintain our friendship we need money.
To make a long distance call, we need money to buy phone, to pay the bills.
Even if we wanna contact our friends through email, we need money to pay internet.
Money cannot buy happiness.
But money can help people in need, and bring happiness to them indirectly.
Money cannot buy a happy family.
But those couple quarrel and even break up because of lack of money.
I wonder if they have money, their life would be better.

Money is not everything.
But everything needs money.

I’m in love…. with life.

I’m in love…

… with life.

Well, recently I have a lot of good things happened to me.
When I say ‘good things’ means ‘new things’ because new things is always good to me (mostly).
I like new things, and I like changes just if they are went smoothly.

I found a new place to stay start from next month.
I found new friends…
I went for interview with SIA which is a new experience for me…
I got what I want…
I got the dress that I have been aiming for few months and when I ordered that time was sold out. But I managed to get it from dames. The exact piece, and exact color and size. It’s just nice.

My life has never been good like this before…
I hope I can enjoy it a little longer. May the good things stay forever and keep coming in my life.
Just let me stay happy forever

Interview with SIA

Yesterday I went to renew my passport.
Actually I took leave 1 day to go interview with SIA as a cabin crew. But I thought the interview was at 3pm, then in the morning I would do nothing, so rather than I wasted my one day leave, I better went to renew my passport too.
On halfway to embassy, I realized that I missed my application at home. So I was thought that I will just miss the interview too. But I had made appointment with some of the forum-ers that wanted to go to interview together. So I decided to go back home again after submitting my application to renew passport.

I reached Simei MRT at 2 pm to meet a friend to go together, then took cab to STC.
Once we reached there, we need to exchange our IC to a pass to go in. They will check our name before they give us the pass.
When we inside the room, we need to hand our application, then they asked us to sit inside one room and waiting until our name to be called to measure height and weight.
After finish measuring, we will need to wait again. Most of the time I used to chat with other interviewee. I met 2 friends from Indonesia, and made friend with them.
We were grouped into 7 people.

The first round was interview in group. They asked us to do introduction. The interviewer didn’t ask anything.
Then we just talked about ourself.
In my group 3 to 7 people passed to the next round.
I failed
But actually I were not too sad about it. Because I don’t really have desire to be an air stewardess. Not like other people who will keep trying until they can go in. I just tried my luck.

Although I failed, I still gained something. I have new experiences interview with SIA, can go to STC and meet a lot of new friends.
I’m glad that one of my new friends that I knew that day can made it until the last round (management interview) . I wish her good luck. ^_^

I still happily went home from Simei back to town. Quite a long journey.
Glad I decided not to go back Clementi then go to town again but directly go to town.

One thing I did after I reached town…
I found something to eat… I were starving. I didn’t have time to eat. I bought old chang kee. :p
I reached Orchard around 5.30 pm, then I were going to meet my cousin at 6.15 pm. So I still had time to grab a bite and shop awhile. Hihi…
After meeting my cousin, we went to CG together. Actually if my cousin never wanted to go CG, I also would not go to. I’m quite lazy :p

Finished everything, i reached home 10.30 pm. Very tiring day but fun

Happy Day

I am so happy today
Well I think tonight I will sleep smiling. Hehehe…

A lot of good things happen to me today.
I really thank God that He blessed me so much today.
Start from afternoon, until night.

I just realized too that helping people will bring me happiness.
I feel joy in my heart that I can help people, especially people that proud not to ask help from me

But still I feel happy I can help people.

What a happy day

keep contact with your ex.

When you break up with someone, do you still keep contact with them?

Well, i do want to keep contact as a friend but until now i don’t.
A friend of mine said better not. Why? Because later the other party will get a wrong idea about it. They will think that we still put hope on them or want to start a fresh? So better not to keep contact.

But if both party is okay to keep contact, then will be better.
Because sometime we just don’t want to hurt each other again. Or maybe we just feel hurt too much then will want to stay away from the person.

I’ve been wanting to call him on messenger. But i close without typing any message in the end.

Well, What are you going to do when you break up with someone?
Do you keep contact with them as a friend?

Hey problem, i have a BIG GOD!

I skipped CG again last night… after last week CG i skipped also…
I went for KFC and meet my friend to pass a letter and collect NEMO ezlink card! yeah!
But too bad tis card only can be used until 2010. After that need to refund…
Why the ezlink card cannot be used for a life time. T_T

Well actually my reason not to come to CG is, because i feel not comfortable to come, and i’m not happy. After CG i feel unhappy, very tired, and unrefreshed. So why should i waste my time to come. The relationship among CG member is only a surface r/s.
Basically every week they will ask you share blessing blessing and blessing. And think they won’t care about your problems.

They don’t share their problems too seem like want to say, ‘i don’t share my problem, so you don’t share yours too’.
I feel like a fool when i supposed to laugh because of their dry joke, but inside i feel sad.
So i decided not to come to CG until… i dunno. Until i decide to come again.
Next week CG i will pass also, since i arrange an IT gathering on Wednesday.

There are some problems i have that affect my longtime planning.
I need to change few major plan in my life. . Postpone until i dunno when. Or maybe i should forget some. T_T

I remember got a sentence say “Hey problem, i have a big God” instead of “God, i have a big problem”
This to help me think in a positive way. Help me to be positive in facing problems and circumstances.
But currently I’m saying God i have a big problem.
Sigh! It’s very difficult to say the other way.

Problem please go away!

true love tag

I am tagged by Jed.

The Rules: *Copy the questions and answer them honestly! an tag another people

1. What does true love mean to you?
True love is about forgiving when the one you love hurts you…
…is when i feel happy for him even though he is not together with me, but with other gal.

2. How do you know you’re really in love?
When i always think about him, and when i know i cannot live without him.

3. How many times in your life have you fallen in love?
Few times.

4. Have you ever fallen out of true love because you were mad at the moment?
yea.

5. Do you feel love and physical attraction are the same thing?
Nope. sometimes people misunderstand, they thought they are in love but actually just a lust…

6. If your true love became ill or disfigured, would you continue to love them the same way?
yes, i’ll try to love them even more… (what a standard answer huh?)

7. Should anyone else be able to tell you who to love or not love?
Nope. I’ll just follow my heart, but i won’t put away my brain, and i will listen to my family and friends opinion, since i know they love me and want the best for me.

8. Do you believe people that ended up divorced were ever truly in love?
Love does change. Time can change love. It can grow even fonder, or fader. So it might happen.

9. Would you give up something you want for someone you love?
Uhmmm depends :p. Basically yes, if i love someone, i’ll try to give the best to him, even though the things that really precious for me.

10. If you truly love someone, do you feel it should be unconditional?
Yes.

Now, I am tagging Pichan, Olivia, Erwin, -Mel-, Wandy, Raykuro, RDT, Heru

first love

First love…

Instead of my sorrow let me write about love…
again~

Hee hee…
Just wanna recall my first love.
I had my first love when i was on Primary 5.

Umm… i think i ever wrote before… but.. nevermind…

That time, i were very shy. Then my parents asked me to join a Sunday school.
But that time i didn’t like to have a social life. So die die i didn’t want to go. Even though my Sunday school friend got pick me, i always had a reason not to go.
But they were willingly waiting me.

I met him.
He was tall, and handsome. ( A primary 5 girl knows about handsome guy already)
Then i just fall in love with him. Uhm.. admiring him first.
I admired him for a few years, even motivated me to go to the same school with him.
When i were on the first year of Junior School, he was on the third year.
But because i was so shy, i didn’t dare to talk to him. I just can see him from a far.

When i were on my first year of Junior School, i managed to have my classroom just beside his.
What a lucky i were. But still, i didn’t dare to start a conversation.
He and I joined the same church, and we were in the same cell group.
What a big chance i had that time to get close with him, but i didn’t use it well.
I just can’t when people start teasing me. I will just stay in one corner and pretend never see or know him.

Until he went to high school, then i study hard to go to the same high school.
That time my parents objected me going to that high school, coz it’s not a private high school.
But somehow i managed to talk to my parents to allow me go to that school. That public school has a good reputation too. And not so easy to enroll to.

But the fortune was no longer mine.
The school has 2 buildings in a different area. The last year students will have a different building with the rest. So my chance of meeting him will be lesser or even zero.
I only managed to meet him when we had school flag ceremony once in two weeks.
We still met at church then… but never really had a talk. I were diligent to go to church, one of the reason was to see him, to see that he was okay…

Valentine’s day….
I hardly recall that i ever gave him a chocolate.
or maybe have… i don’t remember. Maybe if i ever had given chocolates, i wouldn’t write my name, would just write ‘someone‘

He moved to another country before he finished his high school. Then i really no hope to tell him that i like him.

Well, i made few phone calls before he left.
But to make a phone call cost me a lot of confidence. I’m very nervous,… just after i dialed the number, i feel like i wanna close the connection. Coz my heart beat very fast. I don’t know what should i say.
But then i could ask him to give me his photo before he left.
Then he really gave me one of his pic… But not the latest pic, his childhood pic.
He was really cute there…

Then i made promise to myself, when he came back, i will tell him my feeling.
But until now i don’t have chance to. When he came back, i always not around, so can’t meet him.
We seldom keep contact too. I enjoy myself falling in love with him.

My first love last for about 5 years. After he left, i start forget about him and find a new love.
But my love story is always not good one :p

just another boring day

Life is just okay for me…

Tomorrow is Monday again.. i feel that time flies really fast.
I feel that i just do routine everyday. Do something that i even think is quite meaningless.
I don’t feel lively.
but i just can’t quit.
My life is boring. I’m no longer excited about things.

I just want to pass this 2 years fast!
Maybe after 2 years then i can have my own life. I means, maybe i can live for myself.
Until now I’m still living for someone else.

Do my own thing, do what i like, reaching my dreams…
Things that i cannot do for these 2 years…

I know i cannot give up, for them i cannot give up.
Because when i give up, there will be no hope. Do i want to ruin them? No, i can’t.

Nothing can excite me now… Though i cannot give up, i feel very hopeless inside of me.
Though i cannot being negative, deep inside of me, i feel very sorrow.
Just i cannot show it off. I’m tired… I wish i can skip these 2 years.

photos

Finally let me post few pictures taken from my baby exilim
Went shopping to carrefour…

Take photos of fruits are interesting though….
i love taking photos….